Horribly Hot.

The rain was very relieving. The sun was very rude today. The scorching heat made me wish time and time again that I didn't choose Coimbatore for the next four years of my college life.
As the rain drops trickled down my face there was an air of amusement in the car. Surprised to realise I was deliberatly letting this happen. What do I say? They missed out on a big peice of satisfaction. The humidity was finally gone. I could lay still without having to bring my hands over and over again to wipe the sweat off.
It is near to insane to believe that I claim a bond with rains. Mostly, it is the amount of peace it brings up. Surroundings blur and my mind and thoughts become coherent. Close to a feeling that I get after confessing my day to diaries.
It rained that night, too. But, now I'm past believing that it ACTUALLY rains in the epic moments of my life. It's silly. Beyond being insanely stupid.
The drops were fierce, very much unfriendly. It had to be the Global Warming. How long was rain, fierce or not, going to put up with this?
I began to think about how I would be able to help. It was embarrassing to think how heroic I could be about the enviornmental problems and was glad that nobody could read minds. One fear that I picked up after reading Twilight. =D
Books can influence greatly and THAT can get on others' nerves. Lol.
Thousands of thoughts, remnants of past, school, the impossible, everything I want and everything I can't have flashed through..and finally, maybe too soon considering with the speed with which mind works, the thoughts blurred and...I drifted to sleep.

The rain had stopped when I woke up. The scorching humidity was back and I realised I was sweating like a horse. All I could think was the Ice-cream I had earlier today and the AC in my bedroom.

mean Life..

mostly accused of disobeying, lazing around and denying responsibilities..i've only been prefect in one arena of my life so far and that's in being a teenager..
i have this predominant feeling in me that i understand almost everything, wherein, i actually know that it isn't really true...i guess, that's how everyone of my age thinks.


one phase of my life has come to an end..and there isnt really a going back. it hurts to think that i wont be going back to my school to see those familiar faces...i'll miss them and then move on..
actually, one whole year was wasted on fighting, bitching, making people feel small and conceited and what not? it was a struggle to drag "the good" to each one's side, it was a struggle to prove the worth, it was all about vengeance and win the war..and with those days went times we regret now...
it doesnt matter now..
we have, thankfully, gathered enough memories..im even taking few fights along...coz, it's called giving up on certain relationships...


i confess that i was a snob...over a year back, i gave importance to unimportant things and it led me into innumerable pains....days passed, i realised what bummer ive been leading myself into..i used to care about what people think of me..later, i understood that it isnt really about what people think about you..coz they ll talk as long as they get to know..more importantly, it's always about what ppl you know think of you..


yes, ive experienced backstabs, heart breaks and i have wished if everything was alright with me..who doesnt?
thousands of lessons learnt....


being lonely ... being alone ... for many people ... sucks.  i get it, i get it, i get it.  but still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn't honour the person you are is worse.
Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with.

dont i deserve to be with someone who is nice to me? 
eventhen, you are one mistake i'd gladly repeat..


the mean of my Life..